dear you Z

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Dear you Z


I remember the first time we met, i wasn't looking for love. i was running away from it. but u came into my life with carry so much love and effort. how can someone before me didn't see what i see. sometimes i look at him didn't notice a whole beautiful universe hidden within him. sometimes i look at him and im feeling lucky that they didn't because they looked deep enough to see all of those things within him. and then i wouldn't have been able to have chance to love you the what i do.

the day i met you, i had no idea this would be how it would turn out. i felt that something would happen but didn't know i was going to fall this deep in love with him. as this time and liked turned to love i knew i could gibe my heart to you. everything about you makes me feel the most comfortable ive ever been/ not just your presence but your action, your words, how can someone not mad at me cause i complain about the smallest things or get moody for no reason? i expect him get annoyed but totally he dont. the way you treat those around you. i just want to be here to encourage you and loving you Z, to fulfilling your dream, encourage you every step of the way. 

i promise u that i will love you no matter what who you are Z. i won't look at ur imperfections, flaws or insecurities and forever will accept u for who you are. i will always loving you Z. i'll always  be here for you Z in ur best or at ur lowest point. i hope you always remember me when he need me that im here for him and i won' never judge you Z. i dont just wanna be your gf, i wanna be your best friend, ur partner, or anything u wanna be Z! i will always work to show you thay i love you bcs actions speak louder than words.... i want to make him smile, when he lift the veil of their trauma, his pain, his triggers, even his darkside. you can show me who you are Ziid, i won't judge you.  you're safe with me.

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