Selamat Hari Lahir, Sayang

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Aku inget pertama kali kita ketemu, nggaakan pernah nyangka aku sama kamu bisa sampe sejauh ini. Meski saat ini kita banyak berantem, saling nyakitin satu sama lain, bahkan aku yang banyak ngecewain kamu zid. Aku ngerasa ngga pernah pantes buat dapetin kamu, kok bisa aku sejahat itu sama kamu? :") 

13 Juli aku nulis blog ini, hari ini ulang tahunmu sayang. Selamat bertambah usia sayangku, belahan jiwaku, pelipur laraku.. semoga kamu senantiasa diberi kenikmatan yang nggaada habisnya, diberkahi, sehat dan panjang umur. Apapun harapan kamu, dan doa kamu semoga bisa terwujud satu satu.

sayang, dunia mungkin boleh hancur dan berantakan, kita mungkin boleh berantem terus, tapi semoga kamu dan aku selalu dikuatkan, saling meluk satu sama lain, dan ngga akan pernah melepas genggaman satu sama lain. tapi jangan pernah nyerah sama keadaan ya sayang, jangan pernah nyerah sama hubungan kita. kalau emang udah nggaada alesan lagi buat kamu bisa bertahan sama aku, jadiin aku alesan terakhir kamu buat bertahan.
sekali lagi, selamat hari lahir, teruslah bertumbuh dan berkembang sayang, teruslah bahagia, kamu kuat. sayang, if one day we become stranger again please remember me, remember the first time we met, our beautiful memories, our laugh. i hope you still remain unforgotten in my mind, you made me happy when im in my lowest point, made me feel alive after a long time. you deserve nothing but happiness. im glad i met you but im not at the best version when you met me. im sorry.

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